So I need to vent about a few things. And apparently some other things that don't make sense to me at all. I understand you people have your liking towards anime, but please do realize that they're just drawings of other people. I mean, I like DragonBallz, but I don't fantasize about Chi-Chi and Bulma and Pan. Want to know why? Because obviously they aren't real. Now let me as you people one thing, why am I ranting about this all of a sudden, after not posting in my LJ for so long?

Because I feel like it. I'm in a ranting mood, as well as klippyslulz. Many of you people think he's the only one that hates it when this stuff happens, but no, you're wrong. Cause I'm also quite ticked about it as well. I find it fucking ridiculous that people put in their PMs on MSN "LELOUCH IS SEXY <333333333333" If you like Lelouch, good for you. If you want to fantasize, do it elsewhere whereas I won't see it. Cause I have a problem with big anime obsessions. I honestly do think these artists have done a pretty good job on leaving a lasting impression on you people of their characters. Some of you fail so hard to realize that they're just drawings, and that's it. At least in my opinion, it could get worse(read: beastiality and furfaggotry)

But people, be honest with yourselves. Are you really going to marry a drawing? Are you going to have freaking kids with it? For me, I find that sort of impossible. I'm sorry if I piss people off by this entry, but some of you do need a knick-knack to the head, and that you're living in REAL LIFE. Whereas there are no half-humans half demons, no super saiyans(and this coming from someone who's been a REALLY big fan of dragonballz for YEARS), no pokemon(sorry for you furfags) and no transforming into any beasts of any sort, or any stupid shit like that whatsoever. But I feel your pain, guys. When I was little, I was hurt by the fact that pokemon aren't real(but at least I wasn't a furry about it. I was one of those people who wished pokemon was real CAUSE I WANTED TO BECOME A POKEMON TRAINER AND BATTLE MY FRIENDS AND OH SHIT ITD BE EPIC), but I manned up to the reality that hey, these are drawings, and none of these things are real for any reason whatsoever. Anime is there to provide entertainment, lulz, horror, sadness, whatever, and it's perfectly fine if you feel these kinds of emotions, cause basically, what would anime be there for if you felt nothing of it(the exception being if you're indifferent to the anime, or don't like it.)

But people, look at yourself. I want you to look at yourself and think. Think for a good long moment about what you're doing on the interwebs. Cause as much as I respect your liking for Lelouch and other Code Geass characters, I don't like it when they're shoved in my face. Sure, it's good to play a joke or two to try to pretend to be them sometimes, y'know, for the hell of it, in which case, RPing is there for a reason, and I have no problem with that, but please, no fantasies whatsoever. It's just...weird and queer, I'm sorry.

I hope you all understand this entry, cause I've tried so hard not be a troll while I was at it. And no, Klippy wasn't being a troll at it either. He was being more blunt about the subject than I was, but it's still the truth, and the truth hurts, people. But we have to man up to it, even if you're a woman.

And in other news, my mother is annoying me for the first time in a while about how I'm on the computer late, but I don't care now. Once I get my new laptop, chances are she won't control that anymore, cause she won't know when I'm on the computer and when I'm not. :3

Tags: anime obsession
Current Mood: annoyed

My parents first got separated when I was 12. Just your normal separation. Arguing, talking about crap, the such. It's usually financial problems with this family, and it's like..totally uncool. I was crying so freaking hard, it was unbelievable. The sight of them arguing was atrocious, and should be wiped from my memory. At that time, I wish it was a dream...I truly did. I was talking to my best friend on the phone, telling him all that happened. It seemed that he sympathized too, as his mother and his father had separated. But for me, this was a totally new experience. Something I've never felt before. Something...that's going to change my life for good.

As time went along, I felt as depressed as always. What am I going to do without my father? Am I going to see him again? And what will happen if he comes here again? Will there be another argument between them two? The thought was unbearable. I blamed this on my mom for the longest, because she used to get mad at every little thing, it was stupid. She would say things that she would never mean, like selling the house, and she constantly, says so. She says things like "I'm going off on my own" like I'm never going to see her again. I'd be damned if that would happen. Seriously.

Back then, I was really attached to my father. I respected him a lot more than my mother, and of course, my mother knew this, since every time me and her had an argument about my father, I would seem so defensive about my points about him. it was...something I did not want to deal with, to be honest. Arguing with my mom is the last thing I'd want to do, other than get caught up in drama at school.

The months that followed, she has done it over and over and over again. I may suspect that there's something wrong with her, something that's driving her crazy. Maybe it's the separation. And every now and then, she speaks about her "boyfriend". She's still freaking married. Although she says that in a joking manner, it really annoys me. To be truthful, I'd want my mother to be happy, but if she would ever get a boyfriend, he'd better not be a drama king, and not be abusive to my mother. The exact words that I told her:

"If he causes trouble with me or you, I swear I'm going to kick his ass."

She laughed at the comment. Of course this isn't the first time that I've said things like that to her. I've said it numerous times, well, every time that she would mention her non-existant "boyfriend". But nowadays, I really don't care. As long as he respects me and my mother, every thing's cool.

That's the reason for my pissy and bitchy attitude. It's not my mother. My family is crumbling. My father works a job where he has to work his ass off to fix cars, paint em, that sort of stuff, IN THE HEAT. And he's a freaking old man. I feel extremely sympathetic for him. My mom thinks he's rich or whatever, but in true honesty, my father isn't better off than her. Not at all. He might be able to afford nice things every now and then, but only through that hard, hard work.

I feel extremely sad typing this. It's basically just a little vent or whatever.

I apologize Audy, Jake,  Chibi, Matt and Luke, those of you who had to experience the worst of my bad side. Constant arguments, misunderstandings, it all seems to come down to this, eh? Hopefully you could forgive me for what I've done, and continue to be my friend. I really hope so.

You guys are awesome. I had a lot of fun times, and I suppose THOSE are the things that I have to remember. But still...thanks for at least attempting to put up with me. I really appreciate it.

My only goal is to make friends with everyone. I hate to argue, especially over every little thing, since I happen to get that from my mother. Oh, do I dislike some of the charactaristics that I posses. It is most...ungrateful.

It is very unfortunate that I have to go through such rough events in my life. Many snags and knots. All I've been doing is running away from my problems, basically. I don't want conflict, cause of the crap I went through. I feel like I HAVE to run away from my problems, cause I get stressed easily, and I hate the fact that I do(thanks to my mother).

I know I make my mother sound like a bad person here...but in reality, she's actually cool and nice. It's just that her temper gets the better of her the majority of the time and she just doesn't know how to manage it sometimes. She's broke, she only has temporary jobs, and oh god I could only imagine the other crap she's going through.

......

This is pathetic. I only hope my life can get better in the future. I plan to work this year, for not only my benefit, but to help my family. My sister and brother are also going to find jobs. It is until then, that we're on our knees, praying that the best would happen to us...praying something good would happen...we could only hope. My mom, deep inside her heart, knows she needs help. She's begging desperately for something to support her family, no matter how angry or sad she shows it. It's the inside that counts. She can't hide anything from me.

Eh...I guess...

I'm happy with the friends I have. Like you, Jeff. And Jess, and Geoff. I hate to vent, because it's...humiliating to me.

And you too, Ray. You're as awesome as always.

Mizzy-chan, you're a good friend too. I also hope you do not think badly of me.

Ah also...Karli. You've already had enough of my rants, so you pretty much know what I'm going to type out here, I suppose.

Steven, you're my mentor when it comes to writing. Someday, I hope to be as good as a writer as you are. In the future, I plan to be a storywriter. I've been doing so much writing and reading out of plain boredom, that I just though "Why not do it?" Heh, maybe you could help me with this.

Erica. You're a great SA, and I'm not saying this as a suckup. I'm saying this as a good friend. You're really funny, and you brighten up anyone's day, really. I hope you stick around to make more jokes, and stay happy, k? XD

Ah...Christina... I have a LOT to say to you. But you've already got the gist of everything, knowing what I'm about to say and all, as I've said to you multiple times.

David...I used to think you had a huge grudge on me. I used to think you hated me. Well, if you dislike me now, I probably deserve it, whining about stuff that doesn't need to be whined about. I apologize for bothering you, and I guess you have all the right reasons to ignore me on MSN and stuff. It's better to apologize now then to never do it.

And to others that I haven't added in, do not feel offended. That's what I fear. I don't not want to make people angry or sad. I want to make them happy. Just know that I appreciate you for being my friends. I love all of you ^^

And to(some of) the higher staff, I'm sorry that I'm considered a "suckup" to you. I will not say anything against that, because I do not wish to create drama. I'm sorry that I vented about....you know what in the first place. I just hope you can forgive me for it. I won't vent, and I'll try to forget about it..

Tags: friends, mom
Current Mood: depressed

I'm really bored, and I really don't know what to do. See, life is boring like this, and the only reason I would bother to even go to school is for the fact that I'd get off my behind and at least do something. Not that I'm lazy, I'm not, but I just sit around... and to be honest, there's really nothing else to do. I have a lot of good news, however...my headache went away. :D

Other than that, my horrible fever and everything went away. I feel so glad that went away. Oh, and I also have some bad news. It's been quite apparent that my other family members have caught my sickness. At least I hope they don't feel the worst of it. With the exception of my brother for some reason.

I don't know how they even caught my sickness...seriously. Eh..all I can do is hope for the best of them, I hate to see them ended up like I was when I had that sickness, and trust me, it isn't pretty...like I just described in the last entry.

I really hope that it's going to be Friday soon. I don't feel like taking my Mid-term tomorrow, and I have a big feeling that it's going to suck, badly. >>;

Current Mood: thoughtful

I deleted all my entries for like, one purpose: To start a completely new LJ, without making another account, cause I know once I do, I have to re-add everyone again, and it's going to be a large pain-in-the-ass. So while I'm writing this LJ, why not talk about something stupid and boring? Like how my day went at school perhaps?

Hell as always. Especially with the Mid-Term I just took for English. Only part 1 of 2. The second part I have to take Wednesday. Ew.

And guess what? I have another mid-term to take tomorrow. You know, exams are full of fail these days it's not even funny. ):

I can't wait until Friday(It's 11:33 PM right now, so about to be it) so it can be the weekend.

These two weeks are going to be the best two weeks of my life. I get out of school 3 hours earlier, and at certain days, I don't even have it. How cool is that lolz.

k im done with this.

Oh and, this is friends only. Add me if you want to see. Sorry. >:

Tags: mid-term., new lj, school
Current Mood: bitchy